2:04 p.m. - 2005-05-08
i could stand to do without, all the people i have left behind
whats the point in going around when its a straight line baby, a straight line down
so let's make a list of who we need and well throw it away
cause we don't need anyone, no we dont need anyone
keep all those summers with your friends
cause you know you need them
give me options.idontfeellikeliving.
i cant breathe. four months ago you would of called me. youwouldoftoldmeyoulovedme.
six months ago you would of called me.
youwouldoftoldmetocomeover. & we would forget about everything.
eight months ago you would have been over already.
4 years ago i wouldnt have needed anyone.
but i do. myself just isnt doing it anymore. ill drink the water until my intestines drown. ill see how sturdy the leash is. ill see how much bleach my stomach can hold. ill see how much i can buy until the blood vessels in my eyes burst. until my heart goes at incredibly fast rates. that dont really seem too incredible when youre looking at the ashes in your fingers.
