9:05 p.m. - 2005-04-07
she says "its cold outside."
& she hands me my raincoat.
shes always worried about things like that.
she said "its over again" and it might as well be my fault.
she only sleeps when its raining.
and she screams...and her voice is straining.
she says "baby, its three am, i must be lonely." she says "baby, i cant help but be scared of it all sometimes"
that song makes me sad. it makes me think about softball and chewing watermelon bubblicious gum that daddy always had. it makes me think about thirdbase and songs and dances. it makes me think about doubles and hotels. it makes me think of cheating lovers & tearstained pillows. "the rains gonna wash away, i believe this".
i dont know if ive ever been really loved.
love, mallory.
